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  “At least I won’t cause trouble for no reason like him, nor will I be on cloud nine about relying on a bit of physical relationship.” Wen Bai paused for a while, moved closer to Wen Qing’s ear and said, “Did I ask you any favours just because I did it with you for one night?”

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  [1] 哥 (Ge) Means brother, used as a title to address your actual brother, as well as another male who is slightly older than you (i.e not that old to be your grandpa).

  [2] 小莫 (XiaoMo) The ‘Xiao’ means little and is used to address someone who is younger than you.

  Chapter 13

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  Wen Qing laughed, “So what favour do you want from me?”

  Wen Bai shook his head, “There are too many things I want but none of them are urgent. Our relationship isn’t purely physical.”

  “Do you know what other characteristic children have?”

  “What?”

  “They always believe that there will always come a day when someone else will give them what they want.”

  “You won’t give it to me?”

  “I won’t,” Wen Qing simply said.

  Wen Bai laughed and drank a mouthful of beer. He changed the topic, “Are you acquainted with Yan Han?”

  “Why?”

  “I was just thinking whether you were going to have love at first sight if he came.”

  Wen Qing lifted the corners of his lips, “Are you regretting riling Mo Lin up to get Yan Han to come?”

  “That’s right.” Wen Bai stuck closer to Wen Qing’s ear, “What will I do if your heart was to run away with him?”

  Before Wen Qing had the chance to speak, he saw Mo Lin push the door and walk in as he held Yan Han’s hand.

  Thus, he clearly saw Yan Han’s expression stiffen. The other person’s eyebrows knit tightly together and the colours of anger flashed in his eyes. Wen Qing suddenly realised that Wen Bai was still very close to him, and so he greatened the distance between them whilst maintaining his composure. He faced Yan Han and gave the other a familiar smile.

  Mo Lin felt that the atmosphere wasn’t quite right. He gently shook Yan Han’s arm but Yan Han impatiently shook Mo Lin’s hand off and walked over to Wen Qing with great strides, “Why did you come to such a place?”

  Wen Qing smiled with a good temper, “If you can come then why can’t I?”

  Yan Han obviously wasn’t satisfied with Wen Qing’s reply, but at the same time he was slightly afraid of letting the cat out of the bag and so merely said, “I’m just here to engage in social activities.”

  Wen Qing nodded with a smile, “I know. Me too.”

  Yan Han stood in front of Wen Qing. The surrounding atmospheric pressure dropped.

  Wen Qing patted the spot next to him, “Sit, aren’t you here to discuss business?”

  Yan Han gazed at how Wen Qing looked like he was coaxing a child and suddenly, like a deflated rubber ball, sat extremely close to Wen Qing like it was the obvious thing to do. Then, as if he finally remembered there was someone he had forgotten by the entrance, he spoke to Mo Lin in a cold tone, “Come sit, why are you standing there.”

  They finished negotiating the ‘business’ real quick. The results Company S wanted out of this case became much easier to accomplish. Yan Han and Wen Bai’s company also came to an agreement on the project.

  When the negotiation was finished and they were about to leave, Yan Han naturally held onto Wen Qing’s hand out of habit and got ready to go home together. Wen Qing slightly struggled.

  Yan Han lifted an eyebrow and Wen Qing explained with a smile, “I’ll go back to the company with Xiao Wen to hand in the case first. I’ll go back immediately after I hand things in.”

  Yan Han didn’t let go. Wen Qing continued in a gentle manner, “Respect my work a bit, okay?”

  It was only then that Yan Han let go. His brows were furrowed together so tightly they could pinch a mosquito to death. “I’ll wait for you to come back and eat dinner.”

  Wen Qing nodded. On the side, Mo Lin awkwardly laughed along like a clown whose makeup was ruined.

  Chapter 14

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  When they returned to the company, Wen Bai sat in Wen Qing’s car.

  There was a traffic jam on the road. Wen Qing stopped and opened the car window. He lit a cigarette, turned his head to the side and asked Wen Bai, “You want one?”

  Wen Bai shook his head and stared at Wen Qing.

  Wen Qing took a drag on the cigarette and squinted his eyes, “You probably have a lot of questions you want to ask right? Go ahead.”

  “What’s your relationship with Yan Han?”

  “Our relationship is whatever you think our relationship is.”

  “Mo Lin isn’t the only one.”

  “I know, he’s not that good at hiding the truth.”

  “It’s not that he’s not good at hiding it, it’s that he doesn’t hide it at all! Go and ask anyone in this line of business. Who doesn’t know about Yan Han’s pile of shit?!” Wen Bai felt agitated.

  Wen Qing turned his head around and tapped off the cigarette ash outside the window, “I’ve been together with him for twelve years.” His tone was so calm it was like he was merely stating the truth.

  “I know Yan Han had someone at home. In the past, I laughed at that person alongside others and said that he was living the fucking life of a good-for-nothing. But I never would have thought that you would be that good-for-nothing,” Wen Bai smiled, full of mockery.

  “You don’t understand.”

  “Break up with him. Be with me.”

  Wen Qing felt like he had heard some kind of funny joke. He put out the cigarette and threw it outside the window before looking towards Wen Bai.

  Wen Bai just gazed at Wen Qing silently. He was waiting for the answer he hoped for.

  “Wen Bai, do you know?” An emotion known as affection gradually flooded into Wen Qing’s eyes, “You’re too similar to the old Yan Han in the past.”

  Wen Qing slightly shifted his body sideways and held onto Wen Bai with great gentleness. Wen Bai stiffened his body and didn’t dare move, Wen Qing said, “If you weren’t so similar to him, perhaps I would have agreed.”

  The traffic gradually started to move again. Wen Qing let go of Wen Bai and continued driving.

  The entire journey was silent.

  Wen Qing gave the file to Wen Bai and didn’t go inside.

  When Wen Bai turned around and walked towards the building, Wen Qing suddenly called out and stopped Wen Bai. Wen Bai turned around and looked at him.

  Wen Qing smiled and said, “Don’t contact me again in the future. I’ll get someone else to hand in my resignation tomorrow.”

  Wen Bai furrowed his brows, “I won’t allow it.”

  “I’ve already told Fang Qi about it. I won’t be able to work for long. He also agreed.”

  “Why? You aren’t the type of person who is willing to stay at home and wait for another man to present to you the meaning of your entire life.”

  “Did you see the contract we signed with Yan Han tonight?”

  “Was there something wrong with the contract?”

  “There’s nothing wrong now, but if I continue to work here, there will be. However, if I leave, it’ll be a lucrative project.”

  “It won’t necessarily be losing battle if Enterprise Wen fought with the Yan’s. At the very least, we will have self insurance.”

  Chapter 15

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  Wen Qing shook his head, “Company Yan is in Yan Han’s hands, but you’re just the heir to Enterprise Wen. Your dad can’t deal with Company Yan.”

  “Yan Han doesn’t care about you that much anyways.”

  Wen Qing softly laughed, full of self-mockery, “Some people just want to keep something to themselves to ruin, and they’ll never give it to someone else.”

  Wen Bai wanted to say something else when Wen Qing averted his gaze, “You should head over now, I’m tired.”

  Wen B
ai stood there for a long time and still ended up asking, “What did that night mean to you?”

  Wen Qing tilted his head, “Perhaps I wanted revenge?”

  Wen Bai stubbornly wanted to prove something, “Why me?”

  “It actually didn’t matter who it was. It was just to have sex.”

  “So is there anyone else other than me?”

  Wen Qing nodded, “Of course.”

  Wen Bai became absent-minded for a moment and a hint of coldness gradually emerged in his eyes.

  Wen Qing watched the leaving figure of Wen Bai from the behind and thought, ‘Kids were just like that. When they said they liked you, it was like they were willing to do anything for you. Yet, the bottom line of what they could tolerate was always so easily touched.’

  A kid’s ‘like’ resembled that of a joke.

  Then what about himself? A joke that had been going on for twelve years?

  Where was his own bottom line?

  Wen Qing lifted the corners of his mouth and smiled in silence.

  He opened the car door and got in. He drove towards the place where he lived together with Yan Han.

  When he was changing his shoes at the entrance, Yan Han walked over and wrapped his arms around his chest.

  YanHan stood on the stairs. There was a slight feeling that he was looking down upon him, “You’re back?”

  “Mhm.” Wen Qing nodded.

  “Didn’t I tell you to quit your job?”

  Wen Qing was a bit too tired to talk. He walked towards the living room and sat on the sofa without replying.

  “Wen Qing,” Yan Han followed him and hugged Wen Qing before he started rubbing against his ear, “Quit your job, okay?”

  “Why do you want me to quit my job?”

  Yan Han frowned, “The guy next to you looks at you weirdly.”

  “How could there possibly be anything wrong with him? He’s just a kid, why do you care so much?”

  “The way you look at him is also weird.”

  Wen Qing lost his smile, “Your gaze is the weird one. I should take you to see the optometrist some day.”

  “I’m serious.” Yan Han held onto Wen Qing tightly, “You look at him in the same way you used to look at me.”

  Wen Qing sneered and grabbed the remote to turn on the television with a slightly disapproving attitude.

  Yan Han closed the television. His right hand grabbed onto Wen Qing’s chin to make the other person look at him. There was quite a bit of strength in his hands, causing Wen Qing to frown.

  Yan Han only released his right hand after he saw his own reflection in Wen Qing’s eyes.

  He held Wen Qing in his embrace.

  It was just like the affection that emanated in the air after the many love sessions they had together in the past.

  This was the best way for them to feel safe.

  “Wen Qing, I always feel like you’re thinking of leaving me.”

  Wen Qing gently patted Yan Han’s back and sighed, “Why would I want to leave you, I’ve already given you half my life.”

  “Wen Qing,” said Yan Han, “Don’t think about working anymore. Stay by my side, I’ll support you.”

  Wen Qing squinted his eyes and once again gently patted Yan Han’s back. He nodded his head, “Okay.”

  Chapter 16

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  Yan Han wasn’t joking. He truly felt as though Wen Qing wanted to leave him.

  It seemed like little by little, Wen Qing would retreat from this relationship of theirs.

  However, every time he felt unsettled at such thoughts, he would gaze at Wen Qing and feel as though the other person hadn’t changed at all.

  Wen Qing would still meet his gaze with the same gentleness as before. His eyes would be full of love, and even pamper. He liked to look Wen Qing in the eye because they didn’t need to express their feelings with words a lot of the time. They were able to decipher each other’s emotions through a glimpse of their eyes. It was also more because he could see Wen Qing’s love for him in his eyes.

  Wen Qing wasn’t someone who liked to say ‘I love you’ a lot. Other than the few instances when they were first together, the only other times he ever said it was when he was forced by Yan Han on the bed.

  He liked watching Wen Qing say that he loved him. It made his heart swell, and at times a bit sour, but above all he felt happy and content. He also liked it when people other than Wen Qing said that they loved him, just like those young boys, even if they couldn’t compare to Wen Qing.

  Just like a woman’s vanity, a man’s desire for dominance also needed to be satisfied.

  Sometimes as he gazed at Wen Qing, Yan Han would even think how nice it would be if the other could say that they loved him a few more times. Perhaps that way, he wouldn’t screw around with those young boys.

  The man who accompanied Wen Qing to the social gathering tonight seemed to be President Wen’s son. He seemed slightly familiar, he had seen him at a meeting before. Yan Han didn’t like him. He was too similar to his younger self. He could feel the other’s vigorously wild heart. Like ones always repelled each other. Yet, Wen Qing liked such qualities. He was the one dead set on staying together with him back then. The way Wen Qing looked at the other person certainly made himself feel a bit scared.

  What he saw in Wen Qing’s eyes as he looked at Wen Bai was an emotion he was familiar with: a sense of doting love.

  Yan Han hugged Wen Qing tightly.

  Perhaps it was his hallucination, maybe Wen Qing really did just see Wen Bai as a kid.

  However, even if that wasn’t the case it wouldn’t matter. The contract he signed with Wen Bai tonight…. allowed him to take Wen Qing back anytime he wanted. The only way out was if Wen Bai discarded his company, but Enterprise Wen didn’t solely belong to WenBai, there was also President Wen.

  Yan Han lifted the corners of his lips and laughed. Lucky. He was lucky that he was powerful enough. No one else should even think about having Wen Qing.

  As Yan Han thought about this, a sense of contentment and security rose in his heart. His hand sentimentally carrassed Wen Qing’s toned abdomen. As his breaths fluctuated, his hand slowly slid downwards. Yan Han nibbled on Wen Qing’s neck, it was very clear that he wanted to do it.

  Wen Qing’s breathing tempo slightly changed as he suppressed the sound of his breaths that were faintly hurried and hot.

  Chapter 17

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  When they did it, Yan Han ruthlessly thrusted at Wen Qing’s sweet spot in a slightly punishing manner. Wen Qing couldn’t bear it as his fingers helplessly scratched at Yan Han’s back, leaving behind lines and lines of red.

  Yan Han asked, “Are you still going to work tomorrow?”

  Wen Qing’s replied intermittently, “I’m not going.”

  “What about in the future?”

  Wen Qing replied with undecipherable mumbles.

  Yan Han understood him, Wen Qing said that he had already quit his job. Yan Han contently smiled and changed to a rhythm that was more comfortable and enjoyable for Wen Qing.

  As he reached his climax, Yan Han suddenly thought: ‘Wen Qing gave up so much for him, perhaps he could also try and control himself?’

  Thus, Yan Han hugged Wen Qing, whose body was tired and eyes were unfocused as he said, “Wen Qing, I won’t find anyone else anymore.”

  Wen Qing laughed as he thought he was hallucinating. He had fought with Yan Han many times to get him to say this sentence, yet the other person never did. He just wanted psychological comfort, but Yan Han wasn’t even willing to give him a verbal promise.

  Yan Han thought Wen Qing didn’t hear him and so he repeated himself.

  It was only then that Wen Qing realised he wasn’t hallucinating. He felt bewildered. Perhaps… he could trust him?

  This was his last chance. The last chance he was giving Yan Han and himself.

  Wen Qing gently nodded his head with tears in the corners of his eyes.

  After his act of speaking
, Yan Han continued in his act of doing.

  Yan Han cut ties with the young boys beside him and gave them a break up fee as a means of comfort. Everyone felt surprised and they all asked, “What’s this? You found true love with one of your new lovers?”

  Yan Han laughed, “What new lover? I’ve been with him for twelve years.”

  Everyone timely expressed their sympathy. Someone even said, “Why is your partner suddenly so strict? Why don’t you just break up with him?”

  Yan Han thought it was kind of funny. Why was staying together with one person only something worth feeling sympathy for when it came to him?

  After people heard that he had abandoned the depraved way of life and returned to the path of virtue, they showered him with blessings for the two of them to grow old together. However, hints of disapproval were hidden behind their wishes of happiness.

  What man hadn’t experienced such an awakening of awareness? Yet how many could actually keep their promises in the end?

  You say Yan Han? Ha, what a joke.

  Yan Han didn’t say anything as he rejected the young boy who threw himself at him with a forced smile.

  Chapter 18

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  Wen Qing used to like eating sweets, but Yan Han didn’t. He would even subconsciously knit his brows together when he smelt desserts.

  Later, Wen Qing felt bored when he ate sweets for there was no one to keep him accompany, and so he gradually forgot he had a sweet tooth.

  When Yan Han came back today, he brought Wen Qing a tiramisu. Wen Qing ate a single mouthful and his eyes shone, “Where did you buy this?”

  Yan Han frowned as he pondered before he said that it was from a western restaurant that was quite far away.

  He watched Wen Qing eat in happiness and smiled, “Does it taste good?”